The "Normals" Remain In Complete Denial of Both Reality and Themselves
More questions based Upon the Public's A.c.ting Out
Did Jonathan M. son of Marlene M. on Liverpool St. listen in to me talking on the phone to a friend about new Homewood nurse Joe W. appearing to show an interest in me?
Did he then tell his mother who told Suzanne, or perhaps Dale himself, who then told Shashi or G. Daniel? Is it a coincidence that they decided inside a week or so that they were not going to keep Joe?
Were they afraid Joe W. might tell me what they were doing supposedly "covertly?"
Did "Vasha" (sp?) tell my landlord that he shouldn't trust me?
Did she suggest the smell of tile glue used to replace the bathroom tile was really something more sinister and suspicious?
Is the middle aged man whom I have seen at Old Quebec St., standing in behind the partition of my bank talking to someone and watching me, and talking to the university student who lives in the basement of the house next door, a cop?
When the kid saw me talking to him and then said to him, "There she is..'' while laughing with amusement...what version of me was being identified at the time?
Who is "the doctor" the bus passengers having been discussing for years who discusses me with others? Is there more than one of them being referred to in this?
Who is the elderly woman with very short hair at the back and red rimmed sunglasses who knows Scottish Rosemary and who has said, "that's her" at me as I got on the bus? What version of "That's her" was that?
Who was being discussed August 15, 2005 as being fired from Homewood ?
Who is it that is said to be "smitten"?
Who did the H.L.O. say had been fired?
Did the two older women who repeated back to me on the street what I told Homewood staff on my own answering machine in 95 KNOW that I heard them say,
"A game! Well I hope she's happy with all the trouble she has caused! " (I had told them on the tapes what Dale was doing and also what it was called. That also was repeated back to me.)
"A game! Well I hope she's happy with all the trouble she has caused! " (I had told them on the tapes what Dale was doing and also what it was called. That also was repeated back to me.)
FYI: The "game," you harpies, and I know you know who you are, is DALE'S so called "game", not mine--as I had already told Homewood people and CMHC people across the street as well, not to mention a number of others ALL of whom "corrected" me for it, when they weren't "humouring" me.
When you discuss me on the bus, often calling me by name, even though you don't actually know me, does that ever seem illogical to you?
When Beth R. Points me out to people, what is she pointing me out AS and does she know that I can see her when she does that? Or not?
How about Paul and Sue B. RPN and RN at Homewood? When they stood below the H3 window and Paul was pointing me out to Sue who had just got back, looking up at me and smirking while I looked back at them, did they think I could see them then or is that one of the times when they thought they were "hiding" in plain sight?
When I was trying to tell Sue B. as one of the people I tried to get to listen, that Dale was doing his routine and I could not stop him, no matter what I said to him, as she stood there smirking, her eyes glowing with amusement, did she not know she was perfectly obvious to me? (This also was long before I broke down)
When now retired bus driver "Vi" allegedly told people that "those Homewood people ought to be ashamed of themselves keeping those two apart like that" WHICH "two" did she mean?
When former bus driver Donna allegedly said, "They aren't going to say anything because they don't want to open a can of worms," who did she mean by "they"?
When Scottish Rose told someone on the bus that "It was almost all nurses who did it", what was "It" to her? Who was in the picture that Rose was showing to people and telling them he was a cop? Does she have a son who is a cop? Is that where she gets her news, besides from a daughter at U.of G.?
Has Homewood Peggy who has called me stupid twice that I am aware of filled her mother in on what Dale did by turning "reality" around 180 degrees? Is her mother going to call me stupid again too from a few feet away where I cannot see her or hear her? Who is it that's stupid again?
Back in 94/95 when Pat C. former Comcare employee was on the bus being asked by others if she was the "Pat from Comcare that everyone was talking about"? did she recognize that if she said "yes" to that, her "belief" that "everyone was talking abut her would have been a "symptom"?
Who was the man Cathy from the Volunteer centre met for lunch recently (March, 06) at the Bookshelf who told her, "She never says a word to anyone"? How many times do you think as the "she" in question that I have already heard that?
Where did the woman at the Library get the misinformation that I have been writing a book for twelve years? Was that a good way to ridicule me? Do you think they feel all puffed up ego wise when they do that? I think they do. (This is a good example of how gossips knit things together to create a whole new version of reality. let's take a closer look at this one shall we? I have been fighting Homewood for twelve years. Much of that was through using what shrinks like to call my "writing behaviours" because they have to pathologize everything. I have been writing essays etc. for about four years. I also have pieces of book material in relation to my "fascinating case." And I was seriously considering co-authoring a book with a British psychologist and reform activist but he still wants to avoid "blaming others" so we did not click and it would not have worked at this time anyway.)
Now does that satisfy the need for the parrots at the Library to repeat everything or do you feel entitled to more information which is really none of your business in the first place? Be sure to pass this back now to the city employees who run in every day to tell YOU the latest about all they have heard. We don't want to deprive anyone of their gossip fix. Perhaps Homewood could start a program's for gossip addicton? I think it would be a big money maker here.
Does anyone know the name of a second man alleged to be from either Homewood or the university who was rumored to have been sent to see if I got the cable T.V. I was sent anonymously? (I do have a witness who can confirm that it was there for about two years or so)Though I have heard there were two, I have never had a second name acted out for me. I believe though that Marie, one of the bus drivers knows who it might be....
Are you aware that in 94/95, and several times since that, I have told the mental illness profession that Library staff were talking about me and joining in the spreading of rumours? That was redefined as my "symptoms" because it would not make any sense for Library staff to be behaving that way.
Did Dr. Brian F. covertly coach the Comcare office staff here to treat me a certain way including to refuse to help me when I asked them to so that I would accept myself as a mental case as I had once heard in public?
Which lawyers office entered my residential building at the back, crept down the stairs, listened at my door then reported to someone on a cell phone that she couldn't hear anything? To whom was she reporting when she saw me come out a few minutes later when she said, "Oh. there she is now."? Was it Cheryl S. office that was then two doors down? Or was it someone from Flasher and Mann? Did Tom S. and Patrick M. ask them to do that?
Do you understand that Dale's training has been analyzed as taking abuse but, if heard as in instruction by a sociopath, It can be used as a means of dominating the target of the abuser's choice by means of the group manipulated to co-operate with the aggressor by means of "recreation out here in the world of reality"? (jargon)
Do you understand that the power offered in It is by using a hidden agenda of domination put together with a double bait and switch routine?
Do you want to understand that as a group, and by means of the predictable "effects" (what you are "at"--jargon)you have all co-operated with the aggressor's hidden agenda and have continued to mock, ridicule and blame your victim for It?
When the people were standing behind me at the cash register at Upsdell's as I used their photo copier to make copies of the evidence I had collected and was was sending to others, mocked me openly for it, did they think I could hear them behaving in such a disgusting manner or that I couldn't? Is this high class behaviour in your opinion?
When they repeated all the same things which groups of bus passengers have repeated, all turning together and smirking at me saying, "she is just going to show HIM!", did they think they were "hiding" from me then? Or are they just knowingly rude and contemptuous towards people they really don't even know? Are these "normal" people the examples of which I should model my own thinking and behaviour so I don't get handed a psychiatric label?
Why do box boys at Zehr's and shelf stackers at the other grocery stores believe they understand my life experience better than I do? Are they all delusional?
Why do Profs. P. and J.N. feel qualified to assess me and my life and reactions? Do they know that my "claim", that university staff and students were talking about me, all the way back to 95 at least, was assessed by Homewood and the mental illness profession as proof of my "paranoid delusions"?
The following people represent a partial list of the people I have told directly over the last twelve years or so, exactly what Dale was doing and what it was called. I even spelled it for several of them upon request. In one of his answers to me, he is quoting from it directly and the system knows that.They include the following:
Did Dr. Brian F. covertly coach the Comcare office staff here to treat me a certain way including to refuse to help me when I asked them to so that I would accept myself as a mental case as I had once heard in public?
Which lawyers office entered my residential building at the back, crept down the stairs, listened at my door then reported to someone on a cell phone that she couldn't hear anything? To whom was she reporting when she saw me come out a few minutes later when she said, "Oh. there she is now."? Was it Cheryl S. office that was then two doors down? Or was it someone from Flasher and Mann? Did Tom S. and Patrick M. ask them to do that?
Do you understand that Dale's training has been analyzed as taking abuse but, if heard as in instruction by a sociopath, It can be used as a means of dominating the target of the abuser's choice by means of the group manipulated to co-operate with the aggressor by means of "recreation out here in the world of reality"? (jargon)
Do you understand that the power offered in It is by using a hidden agenda of domination put together with a double bait and switch routine?
Do you want to understand that as a group, and by means of the predictable "effects" (what you are "at"--jargon)you have all co-operated with the aggressor's hidden agenda and have continued to mock, ridicule and blame your victim for It?
When the people were standing behind me at the cash register at Upsdell's as I used their photo copier to make copies of the evidence I had collected and was was sending to others, mocked me openly for it, did they think I could hear them behaving in such a disgusting manner or that I couldn't? Is this high class behaviour in your opinion?
When they repeated all the same things which groups of bus passengers have repeated, all turning together and smirking at me saying, "she is just going to show HIM!", did they think they were "hiding" from me then? Or are they just knowingly rude and contemptuous towards people they really don't even know? Are these "normal" people the examples of which I should model my own thinking and behaviour so I don't get handed a psychiatric label?
Why do box boys at Zehr's and shelf stackers at the other grocery stores believe they understand my life experience better than I do? Are they all delusional?
Why do Profs. P. and J.N. feel qualified to assess me and my life and reactions? Do they know that my "claim", that university staff and students were talking about me, all the way back to 95 at least, was assessed by Homewood and the mental illness profession as proof of my "paranoid delusions"?
The following people represent a partial list of the people I have told directly over the last twelve years or so, exactly what Dale was doing and what it was called. I even spelled it for several of them upon request. In one of his answers to me, he is quoting from it directly and the system knows that.They include the following:
Wanda McK. Homewood
Sue, the cafeteria cashier, Homewood
R.N. Leslie M.
R.N. Sue B. Homewood
R.N. Bev L. Homewood
Dr. Geoff D. Homewood
Dr. Deb E. CMHC
Dr. Squ**** General Emerg. who got an appointment for me to see Dr. Alan E. CMHC for which I broke before ever I made it there the first time. Did Dr. Squ**** tell Dr. E. what I had said or did it get "interpreted" for me by him and Rena S. who had gone with me to emerg that day?
Rena S. Comcare Guelph
Blanche D. Comcare Guelph and former Homewood employee.
Janet L. friend
Dr. Brian F. Homewood, 95, after two years of this nonsense, (for whom I spelled it, told him it was Dale who had done it. Do any of these people actually talk to each other and share information or are they all too busy trying to make sure they don't get caught or "blamed" for anything, just like all other dysfunctional groups? and )
When Rena S. then Comcare Guelph, saw my written examples of what the local bus drivers were doing and saying right in my presence, she said, "This is just terrifying. I think if I was in the position you are right now that I would not be able to sit there calmly in that chair and tell me about it. When she said "this," did she mean the experience itself as I stated it, or Or my "belief" that I was having the experience?
Lots more alleged rumours to come so stay tuned........
1 comment:
Thanks for your comments ''introfeel.'' I realized some years ago that MOST of the people ''observing'' us like specimens have no idea they are perfectly obvious to us. It was a very hard concept to bend my mind around but I know it to be true, and I still marvel at the unbelievable truth of it.
Post a Comment