“Message Off the Internet”

“One begins to twist facts to suit theories, instead of theories to suit facts.”
Sherlock Holmes

My usual readers will no doubt be puzzled by this odd message That is understandable as it is for some very specific people, all of them still acting out as always in my own community. As I am not ‘allowed’ to speak, while they are ‘allowed’ to say anything they please without consequence, I am ‘allowing’ myself to speak in this indirect manner to them by announcing it to the world. Hopefully, someone I know in England or Germany will run into one of them somewhere and will point this message out to one of them, who in turn, will then chain gossip it back around the globe to those who are involved, who will then act it out for me from four feet away, while denying the whole thing (of course)

Here’s the ‘message’:

To the one I have named “Intrepid”
Whomever or whatever you are, would you PLEASE stop discussing me with other people. They never shut their mouths about anything. Here is a specific example for you.

The man with the white hair who looks Indian with whom you were once again assessing the situation while at the mall on Friday, shares all the news and opinions he gathers from all with a variety of people which includes, Prof. P. an Asian man at the mall and Susan at the main branch of the Library. These people in turn, pass along every piece of garbage they hear, from every source, assessing it all with everyone they know.

Update: January 6th, 2007
Now what did I just tell you here? I said STOP talking to people at that bloody mall. Did you think I couldn't see you if you had the white haired blabber mouth hold his hand up to the side of his face? Did you think getting up and leaving would do it? Do you believe that Susan at the library has actually stopped talking now? She now goes on about how hard it si "NOT" to say anything? How absurd is that? Those nit wits who work for Martin's at the mall act out constantly not to mention the regular mall crawlers who then get on the bus and fill in the drivers on the latest they just heard there.

More representatives of this sick intrusive society then act it out for me from four feet away including their contemptuous opinions based upon what THEY have "heard." One of the Library employees has suggested to a new one (university student) that they should go out for coffee together so he can tell her what HE has heard also. Then, she can pass all the latest crapola back from there, to her Indian friend who can pass it along to Prof. P. who can smirk at me and fill in everyone back at the University.Do you know what we call this groupthink behaviour? We call it my 'paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations.'

That is how all the participants in this get themselves off the responsibility hook. If, or when, I report this state of reality, from my own perspective, to any of the geniuses in the mental illness profession, it is all denied, and then redefined as the ‘symptoms’ of my ‘’paranoid delusional disorder’’, the ‘disease’ for which I have been forced out of my job (twice) as the means by which I am manipulated to accept ‘treatment’ for my label.You see forcing me out of work and then telling my employer that I am insane and have ‘no prospect of recovery without treatment’ forces me to accept ‘disability’ to survive at a minimum level. (or would, if I weren’t such a competent incompetent like myself) The form asks if I 'think' I am not given work because of my psychiatric diagnosis, which is another of their tautologies since they are the ones who TOLD my employer I was 'totally disabled' and could not work as I 'thought' their was a sick 'game' being played with me and that I was 'set up' by a nurse with a group of his co-workrs joining in the 'game/joke.' To get this disability of course, I must ‘admit’ that I am ‘mentally ill’ with an incurable disease.

Then, the people who attacked me in the first place, will have the perfectly legal right to FORCE mind, body and soul destroying ‘treatment’ onto me (like drugs or ECT for example) against my will and will be legally empowered to issue a community treatment order to do so. That would help me to ‘forget’ what they did, what I know they did, and what they know that I know. See how neat that works?

This is my personal example of psychiatry’s tautological argument and the basis of all its power.

You see, “Intrepid” I am really very tired of listening to people like Susan, mall habitues, or those two women who appear to work in the court office building, expressing their barely concealed contemptuous views of me from a few feet away. Did you know for example that I am quite bright and yet I am 'like a child in many, many ways.' That is the court house women's opinion. They have also connected to a volunteer who works (or used to work) as a patient representative. The volunteer passed one of the court offices women some information on the bus.

If you are reading this in "Box" perhaps you should go to ''Quantum Spirits'' blog listed in the links on the right. I also have another one that no one knows about.

Whatever you do :Please STOP talking. You either contact me directly, in writing at the e-mail address which is in the ‘About Me” profile here or else you choose to be silent and move on. That’s the choice. I have been treated like the centre ring act of this public circus which was started by the nurse from hell for quite long enough. I hate it.

When I say I do not want this kind of attention, which is what I mean. It does not mean the opposite, despite the fact that this is one of psychiatry’s inventions which allows them to deny the reality of GROUP dysfunction.The community group is displaying the ‘perverse voyeuristic satisfaction’ as it is defined and analyzed in the book about the nurse’s game.

I am the OBJECT of observation on the receiving end of this. Like all the other ‘objectified people, I detest this group behaviour. Please stop asking for the opinions of others. They are not entitled to have any when they don't even know me. It was not their business then, and it isn’t their business now.If you are reading this on the "Box" blog, perhaps you should also go to the Municipal Enquirer Blog listed in the links on the right. I would also like to suggest you read The Perfect Snare, written by me and published at Successfulschizophrenia.com
The website of Dr. Al Siebert


if you are reading this on my ''Enquirer'' blog perhaps you should also go to my 'Box' Blog as well. I am sure you will find it fascinating. both links are listed at the right hand side of this blog.

Game Sample

A Sample of Dale’s Game

Try to focus on this all you experts out there.

“You validate yourself by invalidating the other point of view.”

That’s a nexus statement which means whatever you think it means, depending upon your point of view.

Another statement out of it is:
“Reality is a matter of perspective.”

In the ‘game’ the ‘players’ are choosing whether they want to be ‘winners’ or losers’ in the ‘game of life.” They’re choosing ‘enlightenment” OR “power”.

So, when you hear a nexus statement like these, it can be either; an accusation from a victim to an aggressor (enlightenment),
Or,
an instruction to aggressors on how to play the game better in order to obtain power over others.
As it is said, “Everything that is being said is true EXCEPT that what is driving it has been switched.”

Going Public

"It is dangerous to be right in matters on which the established authorities are wrong..."
Voltaire


Going public with my own case is not something I would have chosen to do for myself if I thought I had any hope of resolution otherwise. As I have said before, I am a very private person in my personal life and have no desire to convince others of anything nor to seek their approval. This is not about getting my needs from others met. It is about getting others OUT of my personal space and proving that what I told them long ago is, in fact, correct, and that their refusal to deal with it has only made it all so much worse. Damage has been done to me and my life on many fronts and I am not going to go along with pretending it has not been just because I am outnumbered and the people who want me to do that have too much power and the right to stop me any time they want to do so. It has much to do with the fact that they have that power and can abuse it at will, which keeps me determined to expose all of this. I do not believe that I am in a unique position in this, other than the fact that I have managed to find some real evidence in my own case.

Homewood Health Centre has demonstrated for me that resolution is of no real interest to them, probably because it doesn’t HAVE to be. So, I know that unless these people who have involved themselves in my personal business and in my life, including the fantastic assumption that they understand my thoughts, feelings, motivations and experiences BETTER than I do, get it from me, they will never get it at all.
It is my own perspective on me that is missing, denied, suppressed, altered and ‘interpreted’ by the mob of people, that those who started it all, in the first place, DO NOT HAVE. In their group arrogance, they also don’t seem to think they need it. In other words, the information needed to make sense of the whole thing is the same information which is ignored, denied and suppressed!

Of course, all these people can’t really ask me anything about It can they? If they did, that would be like admitting their involvement and since their involvement is denied and ‘interpreted’ as my perception and reaction problem, they are required to pretend, allegedly at the direction of their employer, that they have NOT done what they all know they HAVE done.

Mirroring It Back

This one is for the old 94/95 Homewood crew who worked on the Hamiltons (2 & 3) and on McKinnon. These are the folks who started the whole thing at my protagonist’s direction. It is a repeat message for them with a ‘hidden’ meaning, and it goes just like this:

“Proof! Some people going to call me up and tell me something I already know. Same people go crazy on me, say, “that’s not the deal we made. I’ve got to go; I’ve got to go.
Faith is an island in the setting sun but proof; now proof is the bottom line for everyone."
Paul Simon

It is BECAUSE he and you decided to deny the reality of our experience in this that you are all now getting it publicly. It is not like I have not given you many, many chances to resolve this privately. You chose, though, to abuse your power, manipulate and coerce me and deny your own responsibility. That’s your choice. MY choice though is to not let you get away with it, despite the power you have managed to hold over me. So now, I will explain it to you in detail, in public.

The people who are going to call me up and tell me something I already know and understand better than they do, are YOU people at Homewood, who did this and who have been pretending you didn’t do anything for which you need to accept responsibility ever since. I was trying to tell you what Dale was doing both on tape and also in person. You would not accept it either way. You thought you knew better and because you did you were sure that I was one who made no sense. So you proceeded with your attack on me. You decided you did not want to deal with this or acknowledge your part of this deal and pulled out in order to take care of your own interests at my expense. In other words, you all went crazy on me, then denied your own group madness and projected it onto me to get rid of it. You apparently feel no guilt about this at all since you continue to behave the same way and to justify and gossip about it to everyone you know, just as you already have. You want me to accept your diagnostics and beliefs based on “faith” but I am afraid I cannot do that as I know better. I want you to learn to behave better also so I will not pretend I DO NOT know what I know so that the whole group can keep up the delusion and predictable group subjective projection nor continue to indulge yourselves in this perverse group catharsis. It is time to get past accepting these labeling sessions based upon faith and time to start accepting the proof that you are wrong to do so.

This brand of ‘enlightenment’ is coming directly from your own victim whom you believe to be powerless and under your total control. It should not be all the difficult to understand the smirk on my protagonist’s face for when you are all doing your abusive acting out aimed at me for what you “Think” is going on, he is hearing in his head all of his training concepts and the effects of it which he also has experienced previously in his training sessions. My experience of it was not something I paid for but rather what I also have experienced previously in the ‘game’ of life. Are you getting it yet, you overbearing know it alls? Have you figured out what the concept, “It’s about your righteousness” means yet? If not, why don’t you ask Dale to explain that one to you?

Ultimately you see what goes around DOES come around, (as many of you are o fond of saying)Now, you can stayed tuned to “Patricia’s Razor.” That post title is going to be expanded now and cut right to the heart of the matter here in this city. It is going to be sharp and blunt at the same time. Though the specific naming of names won’t be part of “Patricia’s Razor”, some very specific details will be there and those of you have acted this out will be sure to recognize yourselves in it, even if you don’t admit it and keep right on with the righteous indignation bit. If you think this is anger, then congratulations on your finely tuned ability to detect that. No doubt you will still be pleased to be able to invalidate it as not as ‘real’ as your own.

“Ockham’s, Werner’s or Patricia’s Razor all mean pretty much the same thing. When trying to solve a problem ( or mystery) the simplest answer is often the right one. So, I will simplify this for all of those who remain mystified by their own behaviour, irrational thinking and judgments mad without evidence.

Since late 1994, while under attack by the psychiatric hospital staff and the public which they themselves involved, I have been telling them that it is the bombardment of the multiple versions of reality and the constant contradictions which were causing me to disconnect from concrete reality. I also told them it was the psychological isolation and the lack of genuine direct communication that was exacerbating that.

In December 2006, I REMAIN in psychological isolation, bombarded by multiple versions of my ‘assessed’ reality and by non stop contradiction. Not ONE person has offered GENUINE, direct communication. Nevertheless, they continue to evaluate me and the situation amongst themselves, while they continue to deny the behaviour to anyone who may ask about it.
I stay sane now because I found the book revealing the contents of my protagonist’s ‘secret’ game.’ The concepts revealed with it, were a match for my concrete experience with him and those he involved. It is laid out there like script.

There is no communication with me at all, even though I am the one who understands it the best. As is said in my protagonist’s training, "It’s about communication.’’
That’s right; and as I have openly stated to one and all involved, “you are objectifying me.”
I am not an OBJECT of observation and assessment. I am a person. You don’t know WHO I am because you don’t talk directly to me.
Four Foot Newsflash:

“That’s her. She doesn’t have any hard feelings towards them at all.”

When did I say that, to whom, and how is it that this stranger to me knows how I feel?

Old Newsflash:
I was sent cable T.V. anonymously, allegedly as part of my ‘psychic testing’ in 95-96.
If anyone reading this knows WHO did that, and what role Dr. Reid Finlayson may have played in it (along with anyone else) please contact me here, at the e-mail address listed under ‘about me” , or the city Police service, or Crime Stoppers if you prefer to be anonymous.

This also applies if you have any other rumours to report about me or in relation to this case. I need names and first hand information to prove my own case. I cannot use all the rumours being acted out for obvious reasons and also because they are regarded legally as ‘hearsay.’ I will add any more “Newsflashes” which I think may be significant on to this post.

I also intend to add a lot of detail to “Patricia’s Razor” as a presentation of this reality from MY point of view.

If anyone knows a good lawyer who is willing to take my case on a contingency basis and who is not so concerned about his or her career that he or she is afraid to stand up to the power of Homewood and the University, please let him or her know of my ‘fascinating case’ as spelled out here and that I now have a great deal of concrete evidence to back up my claim for personal damages. I can be contacted though this blog’s e-mail at any time.

As is said in the nurse’s special training, “It is about responsibility.”
I do so want 'game boy' and all his friends at Homewood to be sure to get the point of this from the OTHER side of its meaning.

No one involved in this is going to ‘pretend’ anything, or abuse their power by doing so and by coercing, manipulating or threatening me because I refuse to ‘pretend’
that I do not know they are in fact, ‘pretenders.’

Though the Patricia’s Razor part of this won’t have all the names of individuals, it will have all the other juicy details which will allow you to really feel the part you are currently missing, almost as I have had to feel it myself for all this time. So stay tuned.