So....Allegedly......
The "people who are talking about us" are YOU people who are talking about us.
The aggressor's game for power is a metaphysical script used to create this very specific outcome. It is a set of manipulations used for a goal of domination of everyone involved. One version of "reality" is handed to the selected victim (covertly, without witnesses) The opposite version is given to the group being manipulated by the aggressor to attack his victim. The dominator then follows his script, after first switching places with his victim by presenting himself as the victim and his victim as the aggressor.
The group, blindly following the leader who is pretending to innocence and acts "mystified," "understands" what the leader has directed them to see. The leader is defining "reality" for everyone.
The leader encourages the group to express their opinions about the whole event, acting as if he were trying to get help to sort it all out. As the opinions of the group grow and get more complex and judgemental, the aggressor lets the group take over the assault of the victim on his behalf, while he pulls back and enjoys watching the chaos and confusion he has created between the victim, himself and the group. He feels a growing sense of power and control as he watches it occur as predicted. He knows there is no concrete evidence in it that he INTENDED to do anything.
When, or more often IF, the group realizes what it has actually done, they cover it all up to protect their own interests, trying to convince the victim and everyone else that "really" nothing happened. The victim, they claim, is only SAYING it did to "seek attention/fame, or actually "believes" it happened because she is paranoid and delusional.
The aggressor ("the wolf in sheep's clothing") then "wins" his domination game by destroying the life, reputation, relationships and security of the victim who challenged (often unwittingly) his beliefs about himself and his "superiority."
In the end, only the victim and the aggressor understand what really happened, and often, while the group believes the roles of the two protagonists are the opposite, the victim can't make sense of most, or part of it. Of course, that is a major part of the problem; trying to make sense out of what was senseless from the beginning. It is about being unreasonable, not reasonable.
This is when the real aggressor, who planned this outcome, has once again, "proved" his "superiority" to himself. It is a "secret" only he and his victim really can understand. The majority which gets involved, has no idea what actually happened, or how, and ninety five per cent of the time that is how it remains. They are too busy hiding their participation in the aggressor's "game" FROM the victim, who in fact, understands it better than they do. They also stay concerned with making sure "others" don't find out the truth. They don't want to be caught being abusive you see. They don't want to be blamed for anything. So, in the final switch on "reality", they blame their victim for blaming them, and declare her crazy, stupid or evil, because by doing so, the group's members all get themselves "off the hook."
That is the group's goal-- to avoid responsibility by handing it to the victim for her "unrealistic" expectations of ethics and integrity from those who spend the most time giving such ideals lip service. If she continues to expect the group to live by their own stated values, and insists upon it for "too long", SHE will be proclaimed a "chronic" mental case for refusing to "let It (the truth about them) go."
It is at this point the labelled person is often heard to say, (often while locked up in the wacko unit for the first time) "This is just evil."
That statement is quickly invalidated by the mental "health" system as a "symptom" of the victim's. We nuts "think" we see evil where the psychiatrist does not and that, like so much in this, is a true statement. That is EXACTLY what we think. It is the point where the spirits of good and evil meet and are in agreement. It is the motivation and end goal on which they disagree.
In the "reality" that has been turned around 180 degrees, the psychiatrist continues to "think", in fact is certain, that he/she has the expert understanding since the psychiatrist has been trained to hear everything the person so labelled thinks, says, sees and feels in just the way he has had it "interpreted" for him in his training. The training is also a "chain reaction" of beliefs about cause and effect.
The person cast in the role of his patient is now trapped in the psychiatric paradox---the more she tells the truth about her experience, the more the psychiatrist (and everyone else) hears it as "symptoms" proving how "right" they are. In fact, they seem to be always right and never wrong. Don't they? In such a case, it is very hard to tell the good guys from the bad guys. (It makes us long for the days of the TV western when you knew by the colour of their cowboy hats!)
The labelled person is now totally controlled by psychiatry and the majority of those who support it's ACT. and the real aggressor, with the hidden agenda of Domination and Submission once again has had his grandiosity enabled, supported and now, reinforced by the whole group which remains blissfully unaware of the whole event and the reality of it all.
For the victim, who is now officially defined as "mad", it is like being forced through the "Looking Glass" into Alice's Wonderland where reality has been turned upside down and backwards. She has been forced right out of concrete reality and into an alternate, surreal world where no one really sees her, hears her, or understands her as the human being she really is. Unless the truth is seen, this is her fate- trapped in the Fantasy World of the Psychiatric "Faith" with the voodoo priests of Medicine, a religion which has gained an enormous and unquestioned concrete power to control the thoughts, emotions, bodies and lives of those upon whom it now takes often only ten minutes to apply a label. It is the label which gives them the right to do so, no trial necessary and no evidence of any kind required.
After that, the rest of society sees the labelled person in the terms they have been told they should.
Eg: "Normal" people "journal" ; labelled people "exhibit writing behaviours."
Everything said and done after that is "interpreted" using the label as the filter for understanding the reality of the labelled person, no direct or genuine communication required. One does not argue with medical expertise after all.
The labelled person has now been officially rendered invisible as a human being. Of course, she still sees everything and everyone as they really are but the groupthinkers remain unaware of that since the same words used to tell them so are heard by them as "symptoms" "proving" that what IS so, is NOT so.
This is why the "patient" laughs. The absurdity of It never ends and is often extremely funny!
As is true in every aspect of this, if the group of "normals" can't see anything funny, they judge that there IS nothing funny. For how could those with the "superior" minds and understanding fail to see what is there?
Conclusion: There IS nothing to see. Therefore the other MUST be "crazy" for seeing something that is not there.
Like I said: This is really not that complicated at all. All you have to do to understand it is go full circle, 360 degrees back to the starting point where the 180 degree switch was first made.
The nurse from hell is playing this covert "game" with me and everyone else. Some of my relatives like to play this "game" too. I have played this game, on the receiving end, before. That's why I understand It and why I almost understood It before I got the rest of the information I needed to finish the job. It is also why you who have NOT played the role of aggressor or victim in this relationship do NOT understand It. Reality is something you experience. It is not determined by either "authority" or "group consensus." The nurse understood that before he started his "game."
This metaphysical creation is understood by some people as the work of the demon known as "The Trickster." The Trickster is a schizophrenic combination of Creator/Destroyer but what it is doing is creating evil and destroying good, while it cons others to believe that reality is the opposite. Perhaps you could explain the meaning of "Trickster" to the two Marlenes, both ''K.M.'' and ''P.'' I am sure both of them will know what I am talking about and why I want them to know.
The followers of leaders who can't be questioned or blamed are never as good at It as the leader on top of the pyramid of power. The Master, with the Master Plan, identifying with the aggressor is perfect in his own way. In this case, and according to his self assessment, he is perfectly ''unreasonable.'' That is what he teaches his followers. Some others, like myself, might call that idea insane. Not so, of course, the loyal followers of a hero who tells them they are ''superior'' to anyone outside their group.
What makes this a ''closed'' system is the leader's premise, which is based upon his psychospiritual attitude. He tells himself, ''If the others are stupid enough to follow a leader, without question, then they deserve just what I am giving them. By blaming his victims, he denies responsibility for his OWN actions. When his followers do the same,the system takes on a life of It's own and It's power grows to become infinite evil. (Almost)
Thursday, December 22, 2005
Wednesday, December 14, 2005
My Own Case
By Patricia Lefave, Labeled, D.D.(P)
I don't kid myself that my own "case" is particularly unusual. I've been talking to labeled people for years now and I hear the same things from them, over and over again.
There are only two points about my own case that make it a bit different from that of most others. One difference is that I actually managed to find concrete proof that what I said was happening, which was judged as my paranoid delusions, was, in fact, true. It has made little difference though allow me to escape further "treatment" up to now. The other difference is that I was not first psychically assaulted by one group (like family, co-workers etc.) and then disbelieved by psychiatry. I was psychically assaulted by members of my workplace and then THE SAME PEOPLE denied the event and proclaimed my complaints about THEM to be my paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations.
I was working in a psychiatric hospital as part of my job assignments with a health care agency. They kept calling me a "volunteer" despite several attempts by me to correct that perception. Perhaps, that is why they felt it was all right to force me out and cover up their own behaviour. So, despite the fact that they KNEW what they caused, long before I broke down as a direct result of it, they chose to keep silent about their role in it, let it continue in public, and have even added to the damage to me for more than a decade since it all started.
When any of those involved, either directly or indirectly, see me now, they either ignore me or they put on that phony facade, pretending to innocence, often asking me in a tone usually reserved for use in telemarketing, "How are YOU doing"? This is done both by those who don't know I have told Homewood everything and also by those who KNOW that I know what they did!
Robert Whitaker and others are right about this. The hypocrisy which exists WITHIN the mental health system boggles the mind. A manufactured double standard of the definition of "mental illness" is alive and well, protected by those who are in control of the system itself.
I don't kid myself that my own "case" is particularly unusual. I've been talking to labeled people for years now and I hear the same things from them, over and over again.
There are only two points about my own case that make it a bit different from that of most others. One difference is that I actually managed to find concrete proof that what I said was happening, which was judged as my paranoid delusions, was, in fact, true. It has made little difference though allow me to escape further "treatment" up to now. The other difference is that I was not first psychically assaulted by one group (like family, co-workers etc.) and then disbelieved by psychiatry. I was psychically assaulted by members of my workplace and then THE SAME PEOPLE denied the event and proclaimed my complaints about THEM to be my paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations.
I was working in a psychiatric hospital as part of my job assignments with a health care agency. They kept calling me a "volunteer" despite several attempts by me to correct that perception. Perhaps, that is why they felt it was all right to force me out and cover up their own behaviour. So, despite the fact that they KNEW what they caused, long before I broke down as a direct result of it, they chose to keep silent about their role in it, let it continue in public, and have even added to the damage to me for more than a decade since it all started.
When any of those involved, either directly or indirectly, see me now, they either ignore me or they put on that phony facade, pretending to innocence, often asking me in a tone usually reserved for use in telemarketing, "How are YOU doing"? This is done both by those who don't know I have told Homewood everything and also by those who KNOW that I know what they did!
Robert Whitaker and others are right about this. The hypocrisy which exists WITHIN the mental health system boggles the mind. A manufactured double standard of the definition of "mental illness" is alive and well, protected by those who are in control of the system itself.
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
My Life In November/December, 2005
So.......Allegedly......
Mocking U.of G.students on the bus point out to each other, ''She thinks it's evil....(scornful little laugh) (Yes Beavis.I do think that) other folks remark in the town square, "They never talk to her." A senior table of men at the Mall gets all the latest news out of Homewood from a middle-aged woman I don't know. Several of the men at the table are from among those who found my breakdown highly amusing, their self deluded little eye balls are some of those glowing with amusement as they have discussed me in the past, often from four feet away. (as usual)
Connection? Well, two of the connections I know about are Mr."M" who works as a security guard or maintenance man at the University and who lives right across the street from the late Dorothy P. Who was a long time client of mine. Dorothy, who got her scoops on me from both him and Eddy D. ( a Red Chevron member)always denied she had heard a thing, even when Eddy was filling her in on what he had heard while I was still in the house.
Why do these people do that? Are they "joking"? No. They do it for the same reason Homewood nurses do it...."Don't worry, she (the crazy, stupid unconscious person standing beside us) isn't going to have any idea what we (the savvy, conscious 'superior' people)are talking about." this is because I'm not real smart like the rest of the population of Guelph.
Back to the seniors:
Know who else is a regular contributor to the Mall news at that senior men's table and has been for years? Dale M.,Mall habitue and Homewood Nutrition Services staff member. ( or was anyway)
While I was still working in Homewood, I got much of the opinions on my mental health and character from the acting out of the dining room staff, often from four feet away. Back then of course, I thought they were "joking" and it was intended as part of Dale T.'s "game" (which it was but I don't think I was intended to see that either.")
While the retired boys' table discussed the latest rumours, two women at the next table observed and one said: "This is what they told her was her paranoia."
A thirtyish guy looks at me, pokes his wife and says, "You can never have too many lawyers involved...ha ha ha"
A young male student, 17 or 18ish, told his girlfriend he had just had a weird dream. In it, he was "told this problem with Pat Lefave would be all cleared up before January."
A university student declares of herself, "no one could label me so it can't happen to me." ( I wonder why she believes that? Perhaps it is just the naivete of youth?)
With an amused glow in his eyes, my landlord asks me how the boiler is working. When the topic and the emotions do not match (as is usually the case with some like this one) it is called "inappropriate affect." I have seen a whole lot of this "affect" in the last decade here in Guelph. Unfortunately, most of it is going untreated.
"S" fills the British Flower in on what she heard at Homewood during her summer stay. The Flower reacted as if it were all "hallucinated" conversations and was careful not to "encourage" "S" in her "delusions" about the Mad Doctor. "S" stated "I'm serious" but of course was not taken that way so she stopped talking about it since she was not being heard anyway.
I cut my knuckle on a can creating a wound which was defined as "gaping." Let me share with you all the assessment of me and my stupidity, as shared on the bus by two male university students, three feet away, observing the specimen here. "That's her. "
"Well, apparently she has a cut on her finger."
"So where's she going now?"
"Who knows...Obviously she doesn't know how to deal with THAT either."
"Hasn't she ever heard of running it under cold water...or just putting a little alcohol on it?" (mutual eye roll)
More on this adventure will come as I tell the rest of the tale regarding the staff's perception of it at General Emerg.
Note To Beavis and Butthead With The High I.Q.'s:
You could run cold water on a "gaping" wound for a long time. It won't heal a gaping wound. But since you didn't actually KNOW what the problem was, nor where I was going, your assessment of me and the situation was just the usual contemptuous verbal diarrhea. Ask yourselves a question. Why would you think ANY of this was your business in the first place? Why do you feel entitled to express your opinion about it three feet away? Now these are NOT rhetorical questions. Self awareness comes from SELF examination. Why not try something new as a change of pace?
On the street, a group states, "She didn't do anything to anybody.. It all grew out of their fear and hysteria. She knew what would happen before it did."
For today, I will close with this rather interesting factual piece:
In 94/95, when I lived on Liverpool St., these were the names of some of the neighbours. ( I would give the full names to the Police Service, though I suspect they themselves are involved with at least ONE of them.)
Between my address and the railroad tracks lived the following people" M.B. a therapist at 208. In the basement of that address, across the street from me lived, P.P. with the same surname as Marlene P. the Homewood nurse who once repeated "Trickster" back to me right after I had said that in the "privacy" of my own home. Whe she did it, alone at the nursing station on Hamilton 3, her eyes had the usual twinkle of amusement and the inevitable little smirk appeared. If Dale T. got that information from Marlene M., he may have told Marlene P. to say it to me, telling HER it was a "joke" OR she may have been having a little "fun" on her own. If the former, she may even admit it; if the latter, she is more likely to be "mystified" by my report like almost everyone else.
At 223 was M.F. Same surname as Randall of the G.T.C. and Cheryl F. Recently of the apartment right over my head. I once asked her if she was related to Randall F. but I never got an answer. Instead, she got right on the phone to someone to tell them what I had asked her. She stated she had not answered me as yet and apparently they decided together to avoid the answer and instead, to just treat me as "normally as possible." She told someone else that is the best way to deal with "someone like" me. I wonder if she would find her own behaviour towards me "normal" if she saw it from my point of view? It seems those who try to 'deal' with us do not often consider how bizarre THEY appear to us. She is now gone and apparently divorced from M.F. the same name from Liverpool St. Back then. Mail with that name still arrives for her even though she is gone. I believe her lawyer was J.M. just down the street from me. The one with the same surname as Marlene M. The daughter of my landlord on Liverpool. My but the world seems full of amazing coincidences with no connections or so it seems to us mental cases who are always reading too much into things.
I guess that's why it has been so hard for Homewood and C.M.H.C. to convince me I just imagined it all and that "really" I'm just another genetic defective with a perception/reaction problem caused by a chemical imbalance bubbling up from within my defective brain. Right?
Of course they all deny they do this which makes it my paranoid delusions obviously. For since I don't know about THEIR "covert" behaviour, what "reason" could I have for not being "friendly" and for not "socializing" with them, other than my "mental illness"?
(There has been a great deal of "interpretation" of me done by a lot of people, including the assessment of my avoidance of THEM as my "anti-social personality." I think "interpretations" of other people work best when done "covertly" don't you? That way, the "interpreter" can't be challenged nor stopped.
I cannot imagine why us nuts don't trust psychiatrists nor why many in the U.S. refer to A.C.T.T. as the Abusive (or sometimes Assaultive) Community Traumatization Team. They probably just SAY that to "seek attention/fame" since "really" nothing like this actually happens; does it, you experts?
Stay tuned as I have also decided to take a cue from Richard A, Clarke. When he wrote "Against All Enemies" on the Bush Administration, they claimed it was nothing but a work of fiction---so he took that to heart and decided to try his hand at "fiction" by writing "The Scorpion's Gate." I have decided like him to put my own talent for "fabricating" to work. Any future resemblance to anyone in Guelph, living or dead, will be purely coincidental.
One more thing. I would send a few people in this a Christmas card but I am not allowed to talk to anyone. In keeping with the covert spirit of a Guelph Christmas, I have written out a card for some, then ripped it up in little pieces and put it in the blue garbage container out back where it is no longer under my control. Hope you get it before it makes it to the recycling depot!
Mocking U.of G.students on the bus point out to each other, ''She thinks it's evil....(scornful little laugh) (Yes Beavis.I do think that) other folks remark in the town square, "They never talk to her." A senior table of men at the Mall gets all the latest news out of Homewood from a middle-aged woman I don't know. Several of the men at the table are from among those who found my breakdown highly amusing, their self deluded little eye balls are some of those glowing with amusement as they have discussed me in the past, often from four feet away. (as usual)
Connection? Well, two of the connections I know about are Mr."M" who works as a security guard or maintenance man at the University and who lives right across the street from the late Dorothy P. Who was a long time client of mine. Dorothy, who got her scoops on me from both him and Eddy D. ( a Red Chevron member)always denied she had heard a thing, even when Eddy was filling her in on what he had heard while I was still in the house.
Why do these people do that? Are they "joking"? No. They do it for the same reason Homewood nurses do it...."Don't worry, she (the crazy, stupid unconscious person standing beside us) isn't going to have any idea what we (the savvy, conscious 'superior' people)are talking about." this is because I'm not real smart like the rest of the population of Guelph.
Back to the seniors:
Know who else is a regular contributor to the Mall news at that senior men's table and has been for years? Dale M.,Mall habitue and Homewood Nutrition Services staff member. ( or was anyway)
While I was still working in Homewood, I got much of the opinions on my mental health and character from the acting out of the dining room staff, often from four feet away. Back then of course, I thought they were "joking" and it was intended as part of Dale T.'s "game" (which it was but I don't think I was intended to see that either.")
While the retired boys' table discussed the latest rumours, two women at the next table observed and one said: "This is what they told her was her paranoia."
A thirtyish guy looks at me, pokes his wife and says, "You can never have too many lawyers involved...ha ha ha"
A young male student, 17 or 18ish, told his girlfriend he had just had a weird dream. In it, he was "told this problem with Pat Lefave would be all cleared up before January."
A university student declares of herself, "no one could label me so it can't happen to me." ( I wonder why she believes that? Perhaps it is just the naivete of youth?)
With an amused glow in his eyes, my landlord asks me how the boiler is working. When the topic and the emotions do not match (as is usually the case with some like this one) it is called "inappropriate affect." I have seen a whole lot of this "affect" in the last decade here in Guelph. Unfortunately, most of it is going untreated.
"S" fills the British Flower in on what she heard at Homewood during her summer stay. The Flower reacted as if it were all "hallucinated" conversations and was careful not to "encourage" "S" in her "delusions" about the Mad Doctor. "S" stated "I'm serious" but of course was not taken that way so she stopped talking about it since she was not being heard anyway.
I cut my knuckle on a can creating a wound which was defined as "gaping." Let me share with you all the assessment of me and my stupidity, as shared on the bus by two male university students, three feet away, observing the specimen here. "That's her. "
"Well, apparently she has a cut on her finger."
"So where's she going now?"
"Who knows...Obviously she doesn't know how to deal with THAT either."
"Hasn't she ever heard of running it under cold water...or just putting a little alcohol on it?" (mutual eye roll)
More on this adventure will come as I tell the rest of the tale regarding the staff's perception of it at General Emerg.
Note To Beavis and Butthead With The High I.Q.'s:
You could run cold water on a "gaping" wound for a long time. It won't heal a gaping wound. But since you didn't actually KNOW what the problem was, nor where I was going, your assessment of me and the situation was just the usual contemptuous verbal diarrhea. Ask yourselves a question. Why would you think ANY of this was your business in the first place? Why do you feel entitled to express your opinion about it three feet away? Now these are NOT rhetorical questions. Self awareness comes from SELF examination. Why not try something new as a change of pace?
On the street, a group states, "She didn't do anything to anybody.. It all grew out of their fear and hysteria. She knew what would happen before it did."
For today, I will close with this rather interesting factual piece:
In 94/95, when I lived on Liverpool St., these were the names of some of the neighbours. ( I would give the full names to the Police Service, though I suspect they themselves are involved with at least ONE of them.)
Between my address and the railroad tracks lived the following people" M.B. a therapist at 208. In the basement of that address, across the street from me lived, P.P. with the same surname as Marlene P. the Homewood nurse who once repeated "Trickster" back to me right after I had said that in the "privacy" of my own home. Whe she did it, alone at the nursing station on Hamilton 3, her eyes had the usual twinkle of amusement and the inevitable little smirk appeared. If Dale T. got that information from Marlene M., he may have told Marlene P. to say it to me, telling HER it was a "joke" OR she may have been having a little "fun" on her own. If the former, she may even admit it; if the latter, she is more likely to be "mystified" by my report like almost everyone else.
At 223 was M.F. Same surname as Randall of the G.T.C. and Cheryl F. Recently of the apartment right over my head. I once asked her if she was related to Randall F. but I never got an answer. Instead, she got right on the phone to someone to tell them what I had asked her. She stated she had not answered me as yet and apparently they decided together to avoid the answer and instead, to just treat me as "normally as possible." She told someone else that is the best way to deal with "someone like" me. I wonder if she would find her own behaviour towards me "normal" if she saw it from my point of view? It seems those who try to 'deal' with us do not often consider how bizarre THEY appear to us. She is now gone and apparently divorced from M.F. the same name from Liverpool St. Back then. Mail with that name still arrives for her even though she is gone. I believe her lawyer was J.M. just down the street from me. The one with the same surname as Marlene M. The daughter of my landlord on Liverpool. My but the world seems full of amazing coincidences with no connections or so it seems to us mental cases who are always reading too much into things.
I guess that's why it has been so hard for Homewood and C.M.H.C. to convince me I just imagined it all and that "really" I'm just another genetic defective with a perception/reaction problem caused by a chemical imbalance bubbling up from within my defective brain. Right?
Of course they all deny they do this which makes it my paranoid delusions obviously. For since I don't know about THEIR "covert" behaviour, what "reason" could I have for not being "friendly" and for not "socializing" with them, other than my "mental illness"?
(There has been a great deal of "interpretation" of me done by a lot of people, including the assessment of my avoidance of THEM as my "anti-social personality." I think "interpretations" of other people work best when done "covertly" don't you? That way, the "interpreter" can't be challenged nor stopped.
I cannot imagine why us nuts don't trust psychiatrists nor why many in the U.S. refer to A.C.T.T. as the Abusive (or sometimes Assaultive) Community Traumatization Team. They probably just SAY that to "seek attention/fame" since "really" nothing like this actually happens; does it, you experts?
Stay tuned as I have also decided to take a cue from Richard A, Clarke. When he wrote "Against All Enemies" on the Bush Administration, they claimed it was nothing but a work of fiction---so he took that to heart and decided to try his hand at "fiction" by writing "The Scorpion's Gate." I have decided like him to put my own talent for "fabricating" to work. Any future resemblance to anyone in Guelph, living or dead, will be purely coincidental.
One more thing. I would send a few people in this a Christmas card but I am not allowed to talk to anyone. In keeping with the covert spirit of a Guelph Christmas, I have written out a card for some, then ripped it up in little pieces and put it in the blue garbage container out back where it is no longer under my control. Hope you get it before it makes it to the recycling depot!
Monday, December 12, 2005
On Speaking Politely
Learning From Your ''Inferiors"
I once had a friendship with an intellectually challenged woman (who preferred to be called ''girl'' thank-you) who had been institutionalized for most of her life. She once told me that when nurses caught her swearing like a trooper they let her know it was a bad thing to do, especially the "F" word. They suggested she change the way she used her words so that it would sound better; so she did. In her more literal way of understanding things, she made a literal change. So, following the nurse's advice, every word that started with the letter " f " was changed to start with the letter " t " instead. EVERY WORD.
In that spirit, I would like to suggest to the nurse from hell that perhaps he should "tuck right off" with his so-called "joke" or "game."
Now you won't read anything into that will you? After all, you wouldn't want to get medicated for "reading too much into things."
I once had a friendship with an intellectually challenged woman (who preferred to be called ''girl'' thank-you) who had been institutionalized for most of her life. She once told me that when nurses caught her swearing like a trooper they let her know it was a bad thing to do, especially the "F" word. They suggested she change the way she used her words so that it would sound better; so she did. In her more literal way of understanding things, she made a literal change. So, following the nurse's advice, every word that started with the letter " f " was changed to start with the letter " t " instead. EVERY WORD.
In that spirit, I would like to suggest to the nurse from hell that perhaps he should "tuck right off" with his so-called "joke" or "game."
Now you won't read anything into that will you? After all, you wouldn't want to get medicated for "reading too much into things."
Saturday, December 10, 2005
A Message Off The Internet For Mr. ''T.''
( The Short White One)
Recently, I have ''hallucinated'' conversations about YOU coming out of the mouths of strangers to me. After the usual type of remark: ''There she is....''etc. It has been said, ''Someone should find him and beat the piss out of him...'' and two days ago a man said, ''I would kill him.''
Perhaps, Mr. ''T.''you are going to get to share my experience in ways you never would have dreamed possible because you thought the ''game'' you were playing was finished because YOU looked no further than trying to satisfy your own convoluted needs.
Of course, I'm sure I am just reading too much into things-- as always. It must be fascinating for you to observe your own ''game'' coming back to you though? Isn't it?
Still, I think it must be awfully difficult to direct all these people you have involved in just the way you want ''reality'' to go; hard to control a mob, however benign that mob may be. Do you think you will be able to keep them all silent? Do you think they have all BEEN silent? What about all the people THEY told all over town? Will you be able to locate them all to shut them up too? Did you think of that when you were running your ''game''?
I must say, I sure don't envy you now. Are you going to tell all your co-workers they shouldn't listen to me, like you did before?
Suggestion for you: If it gets to the point where you have to CHOOSE between being a criminal OR ''mentally ill'' ( Don't kid yourself that you can have both!) I would pick the former if I were you. That way you will get treated better and you won't get the lifetime sentence us nuts get along with our labels.
Recently, I have ''hallucinated'' conversations about YOU coming out of the mouths of strangers to me. After the usual type of remark: ''There she is....''etc. It has been said, ''Someone should find him and beat the piss out of him...'' and two days ago a man said, ''I would kill him.''
Perhaps, Mr. ''T.''you are going to get to share my experience in ways you never would have dreamed possible because you thought the ''game'' you were playing was finished because YOU looked no further than trying to satisfy your own convoluted needs.
Of course, I'm sure I am just reading too much into things-- as always. It must be fascinating for you to observe your own ''game'' coming back to you though? Isn't it?
Still, I think it must be awfully difficult to direct all these people you have involved in just the way you want ''reality'' to go; hard to control a mob, however benign that mob may be. Do you think you will be able to keep them all silent? Do you think they have all BEEN silent? What about all the people THEY told all over town? Will you be able to locate them all to shut them up too? Did you think of that when you were running your ''game''?
I must say, I sure don't envy you now. Are you going to tell all your co-workers they shouldn't listen to me, like you did before?
Suggestion for you: If it gets to the point where you have to CHOOSE between being a criminal OR ''mentally ill'' ( Don't kid yourself that you can have both!) I would pick the former if I were you. That way you will get treated better and you won't get the lifetime sentence us nuts get along with our labels.
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Around And Around We Go....
So Allegedly...
As psychiatrists fail to see what is right in front of them, they also talk the patient around the circle of their belief system which THEY accept as the TRUE "reality." What they are actually often doing, is breaking down the individual's ego structure or driving them deeper into psychosis by invalidating the reality of the psychiatrized person's experience.
It is often the case that this is the reason why the psychiatrized wants to die. It is the reason they fight so hard against "treatment." You are frequently forcing the psychiatrized back into the "treatment" that is making them wish they were dead. This is the circular trap which cannot be escaped. This is something police and many others enlisted to "save" us do not understand because they are being taught otherwise.
When was the last time you asked the patient why he or she wanted to die? It is generally someone else who "interprets" the patient for others. We get the view of the police officers wrestling the patient to the ground, (for his or her own good) we hear from the family members, we hear the doctor "explaining" the patient's feelings for us, we hear the opinions of every Tom, Dick and Harriet in the public. Rarely though do you hear from the patient who does not want, or like the "treatment." Only the converts get a publicly sanctioned voice. It is commonly stated by those who do not like the "treatment," and who often feel worse than they did when they got "helped," that their psychiatrists attitude could be summed up in one phrase..."shut up and take your pill."
You know what is likely to happen in Guelph as a result of my saying this and the locals repeating it? Box boys, dollar store clerks, Homewood Volunteers, seniors, university students, Homewood nurses, etc. Will use it to indulge in their usual "bonding through ridicule" reaction.
Remember, you must deny you're doing it, while you do it and you must also convince yourselves that when you talk about it, in my presence, that I will not KNOW you are doing it. All of this is part of the circle of your ongoing denial and that is what keeps the whole system operating the same way after all. As " Norm M. " the bus driver, once assessed in the situation with me, "And around the circle we go again! har har har." That's right Normie...but it is likely that Norm thought I was the one in the mindless circle because Norm did not understand it was the premise he accepted, as part of the group's set up by Dale T. of "reality," that was causing HIM and his bus driving buddies to "fail to see it." That is why it depends upon how you look at it. Ask the nurse from hell what that means. He knows even if he tells you he doesn't remember.
It is keeping "reality" split in two in order to preserve the grandiosity of some, that keeps this going. It is avoiding knowing that all humans are actually equal parts of the whole, neither superior nor inferior in inherent worth, which keeps the masses blind to themselves and to their own well supported mess.
Now would be a good time to rent the movie, "Nuremberg" again. The one with Alec Baldwin in it. Pay special attention to the comments of the police who supported the Nazis while you watch it. It is very "enlightening."
Homewood Administration, Doctors Geoff D. , Shashi J., and Philip L. and others know that I know what they did, and have known for more than a decade. This is another version of the Emperor's New Clothes folks. Do you want to ignore me, coerce me and threaten me some more for knowing? Go right ahead. Want to deny all the damage you have caused? By all means, blame your vicitm.
In a supposedly democratic society I have the same right to express my opinion of all of you, as you do to express yours about me. I have the same right to assess the thinking of Ian Chovil as he does to express his opinion of me. If I don't, then there is something very wrong here and you don't really have to look too far to see what it is. I intend to exercise my democratic rights because if I am prevented from doing so, this society, as a whole, is deluding itself that is IS a democracy and that there is NO double standard here. This major societal delusion is in desperate need of some appropriate treatment. I am afraid that if more of us do not start exercising this right, it may soon disappear under a heavy blanket of the re-creation of psychiatric labeling designed to prevent it.
The nurse/protagonist's "special" training is an abstraction of words and platitudes delivered in absolute terms. Just like in all dysfunctional groups, it has NO meaning until, or unless, it is connected to concrete, specific detail.
It's about responsibility. (what about it?)
It's about domination. (in what sense?)
It's about winning. (winning what? What does "winning" mean to you?)
And more commonly, "We can't blame others." ( what "others"? Under what circumstances? Who are these "others"? In relation to what exactly?)
These are meaningless nexus statements. Like in spirituality, they exist as a point of potential only, being neither good nor evil until understood in conjunction with specific concrete information. To think otherwise is like splitting your own brains into left and right hemispheres as if they were not designed to work together. Until both concrete AND (not or) abstract are understood together, it is just idiotic nonsense and because it is, people supply them with the meaning they want them to have by means of subjective projection; either out of their own experience or, just as often, out of their LACK of experience.
Want to see how the masses get themselves out of a mess like this? It is very simple really.
Step One:
Deny the whole event and the participation of everyone in it. ("Really", there was no Holocaust)
Step Two:
Redefine it as a perception/reaction problem in the victim by proclaiming it paranoid delusions, hallucinated conversations and inappropriate affects.
Step Three:
Label the victim to get her under your control. Intimidate her and threaten her to shut her up.
Result: ( or "effect" if you prefer that word. the nurse does. )
Presto! Change-O! "Reality" has been redefined as the exact opposite of itself. Everyone involved has managed to sidestep personal responsibility by handing it to their victim, who will now suffer any and all losses in their place. The group dynamic of sacrifice is still alive, it's just not so obvious as it once was, nor usually quite so physical. These days it is usually kept metaphysical, just as the nurse was taught. This is what makes the domination people smirk with satisfaction, their insane little eyeballs all glowing with amusement. For even those who witness it as it is occurring can see no evil.
As psychiatrists fail to see what is right in front of them, they also talk the patient around the circle of their belief system which THEY accept as the TRUE "reality." What they are actually often doing, is breaking down the individual's ego structure or driving them deeper into psychosis by invalidating the reality of the psychiatrized person's experience.
It is often the case that this is the reason why the psychiatrized wants to die. It is the reason they fight so hard against "treatment." You are frequently forcing the psychiatrized back into the "treatment" that is making them wish they were dead. This is the circular trap which cannot be escaped. This is something police and many others enlisted to "save" us do not understand because they are being taught otherwise.
When was the last time you asked the patient why he or she wanted to die? It is generally someone else who "interprets" the patient for others. We get the view of the police officers wrestling the patient to the ground, (for his or her own good) we hear from the family members, we hear the doctor "explaining" the patient's feelings for us, we hear the opinions of every Tom, Dick and Harriet in the public. Rarely though do you hear from the patient who does not want, or like the "treatment." Only the converts get a publicly sanctioned voice. It is commonly stated by those who do not like the "treatment," and who often feel worse than they did when they got "helped," that their psychiatrists attitude could be summed up in one phrase..."shut up and take your pill."
You know what is likely to happen in Guelph as a result of my saying this and the locals repeating it? Box boys, dollar store clerks, Homewood Volunteers, seniors, university students, Homewood nurses, etc. Will use it to indulge in their usual "bonding through ridicule" reaction.
Remember, you must deny you're doing it, while you do it and you must also convince yourselves that when you talk about it, in my presence, that I will not KNOW you are doing it. All of this is part of the circle of your ongoing denial and that is what keeps the whole system operating the same way after all. As " Norm M. " the bus driver, once assessed in the situation with me, "And around the circle we go again! har har har." That's right Normie...but it is likely that Norm thought I was the one in the mindless circle because Norm did not understand it was the premise he accepted, as part of the group's set up by Dale T. of "reality," that was causing HIM and his bus driving buddies to "fail to see it." That is why it depends upon how you look at it. Ask the nurse from hell what that means. He knows even if he tells you he doesn't remember.
It is keeping "reality" split in two in order to preserve the grandiosity of some, that keeps this going. It is avoiding knowing that all humans are actually equal parts of the whole, neither superior nor inferior in inherent worth, which keeps the masses blind to themselves and to their own well supported mess.
Now would be a good time to rent the movie, "Nuremberg" again. The one with Alec Baldwin in it. Pay special attention to the comments of the police who supported the Nazis while you watch it. It is very "enlightening."
Homewood Administration, Doctors Geoff D. , Shashi J., and Philip L. and others know that I know what they did, and have known for more than a decade. This is another version of the Emperor's New Clothes folks. Do you want to ignore me, coerce me and threaten me some more for knowing? Go right ahead. Want to deny all the damage you have caused? By all means, blame your vicitm.
In a supposedly democratic society I have the same right to express my opinion of all of you, as you do to express yours about me. I have the same right to assess the thinking of Ian Chovil as he does to express his opinion of me. If I don't, then there is something very wrong here and you don't really have to look too far to see what it is. I intend to exercise my democratic rights because if I am prevented from doing so, this society, as a whole, is deluding itself that is IS a democracy and that there is NO double standard here. This major societal delusion is in desperate need of some appropriate treatment. I am afraid that if more of us do not start exercising this right, it may soon disappear under a heavy blanket of the re-creation of psychiatric labeling designed to prevent it.
The nurse/protagonist's "special" training is an abstraction of words and platitudes delivered in absolute terms. Just like in all dysfunctional groups, it has NO meaning until, or unless, it is connected to concrete, specific detail.
It's about responsibility. (what about it?)
It's about domination. (in what sense?)
It's about winning. (winning what? What does "winning" mean to you?)
And more commonly, "We can't blame others." ( what "others"? Under what circumstances? Who are these "others"? In relation to what exactly?)
These are meaningless nexus statements. Like in spirituality, they exist as a point of potential only, being neither good nor evil until understood in conjunction with specific concrete information. To think otherwise is like splitting your own brains into left and right hemispheres as if they were not designed to work together. Until both concrete AND (not or) abstract are understood together, it is just idiotic nonsense and because it is, people supply them with the meaning they want them to have by means of subjective projection; either out of their own experience or, just as often, out of their LACK of experience.
Want to see how the masses get themselves out of a mess like this? It is very simple really.
Step One:
Deny the whole event and the participation of everyone in it. ("Really", there was no Holocaust)
Step Two:
Redefine it as a perception/reaction problem in the victim by proclaiming it paranoid delusions, hallucinated conversations and inappropriate affects.
Step Three:
Label the victim to get her under your control. Intimidate her and threaten her to shut her up.
Result: ( or "effect" if you prefer that word. the nurse does. )
Presto! Change-O! "Reality" has been redefined as the exact opposite of itself. Everyone involved has managed to sidestep personal responsibility by handing it to their victim, who will now suffer any and all losses in their place. The group dynamic of sacrifice is still alive, it's just not so obvious as it once was, nor usually quite so physical. These days it is usually kept metaphysical, just as the nurse was taught. This is what makes the domination people smirk with satisfaction, their insane little eyeballs all glowing with amusement. For even those who witness it as it is occurring can see no evil.
Friday, December 02, 2005
Don't See, Don't Hear, Don't Know:
Just "Comply" With The Groupthink:
So Allegedly...
It was once acted out for me after a group defining my "madness" for me had said, "Well, if she thinks people are talking about her..." that a "he" responded to the comments of those others in this plain, direct way: "We are talking about her right now."
Assuming that report was true, whichever "he" that was needs to know something...Even though you aren't labeled (yet!) you are in very much the same psychological position as those of us who ARE labeled. The experts, families, and supporters of the current system can't hear you. They are psychologically deaf to plain speech and are looking for "hidden" meaning in it as a protective device for THEM. The group protects itself from self awareness, denying itself as "the people" doing the "talking about me."
Why? Because the "diagnostics" are based upon finding the genetic defectives; locating and identifying those who are "inferior" to them. This is the grand group delusion which is being promoted. The group NEEDS an alternate meaning to identify it's members as "superior" in either understanding or worth. To do that, they MUST avoid awareness of the perfectly obvious. That is why the dysfunctional get so angry when it is pointed out to them. It is very threatening to their ego structure so they fight against it as a group. They close ranks and treat the truth like an "infection" because they don't know it's actually the "cure."
What you experience when attacked for stating the obvious is the same thing WE do when it happens to us, except that we get "treatment" to "help" us change our minds, or threatened with "treatment" if we don't agree to remain silent about it, as we are instructed by the system to do.
I am aware, having been told several times by the system that I am "not to confront anyone at Homewood, nor speak about this publicly," that I am taking a chance by doing so. However, if I don't, I will lose everything and the community contempt fest (often viewed as great "fun" by the participants) will continue indefinitely while all the guilty get themselves off the accountability hook. Some "choice" I have isn't it?
The only thing "unusual" about my "case" is that my "saviours" and the group of people which did it to me in the first place are one and the same. Usually, it's group 1 (which breaks the individual down: workplace, family, school group, mob of idiots) followed by group 2: (mental illness system, which defines us as self contained genetic defective or disease process) Other than that though, my experience is pretty similar to that of any other labeled person.
The system stopped listening to anyone who doesn't agree with it a long time ago. Now it tends to tolerate only the ''converts'' to the Psychiatric Faith; no dissenting opinions allowed,and no negative news published, nor disastrous outcomes. Not if they can prevent it, and apparently, they CAN. Perhaps that is the highest function of the ''Information Control Officers.''
Do you know who can hear all of this stated though?....myself and Dale T. Because we BOTH understand the 'switch" he pulled as the premise of judgement. Remember what I said on the tapes to him and those listening on Hamilton 2 and 3? The statement was part of MY little "test" of him to see if he would own up to what he did. I was trying to find out if it really WAS an accident or if he had done it deliberately. Of course, that was about five years before I found The Book laying it all out for me. (The same book Jill H. at Homewood found so fascinating she couldn't put it down.)I had said, "if you pull out the premise then nothing I have said or done after that appears to make sense. Even I can see that." Then I asked dale, referring to his "Waiting For Godot" remark which he had made to me, "Shall we rescue each other?" Apparently his answer was no. So this has convinced me, coupled with the deeper understanding of his so-called "training" out of The Book, that it was a planned and deliberate act. I'm sure we could all find out for sure if we really wanted to know the truth. DO we want that? Or would most of you rather bury it?
I believe the power rush comes for him from knowing that I know, and that no one else understands that. He knows they can't really hear me in any terms other than those which HE has directed and defined FOR them. It's like two "realities" based upon the same words, which are sitting on the same nexus point. What they mean are a matter of your point of view. Where do you believe the action begins? If you like, I will connect this directly, point by point, to The Book.
I told psychiatrists I had been set up by a nurse to appear to be crazy, and psychiatrists, responding to key stimulus terms like "set up", heard the "symptoms" they have all been well 'trained" to hear in their knee jerk reactions. This is a stimulus/response routine after all. They labeled me for telling them the truth they can't hear basically. In the nurse's "special" training it is said that "setting people up" etc. is said to be OK since life is "meaningless" anyway.
I also found this "circle" interesting:
It is said that bus driver, Wayne P. fed me this information( over the bus radio) which he got from Dale in the psychic con bit, later heard me tell them, (bus drivers) mentioning him and Peter Johnson by name, that I was being "set up to look like I am crazy", asked Johanna D., HLO about it, then asked Dale about what Johanna had said. Dale denied it, then went and asked Johanna if she had said something about him, which SHE denied, which put Dale back into control again. Presto! Shift and switch~!
After that, Wayne P. was convinced I was crazy and that he shouldn't listen to anything I said. So Wayne P. started telling all the bus passengers,(the ones he had been keeping informed of HIS version of my reality) how dangerous I was and the whole town joined in. Unless they still thought it was all a game or a "joke." Either way, from MY point of view, everyone was just a-grinning away everywhere I went, and having them a great time, using my breakdown as "entertainment" for the mindless masses which, of course, would be denied and redefined as my "symptoms." You "think but you don't THINK" Right Dale?
But hey experts....don't let any evidence move you from your assumed position of superior understanding. After all, that would make for bad P.R. and it may affect your unquestioned power which cannot be debated by mere mortals and perhaps the "product" of your business could appear to be somewhat flawed. Quick Al H.! As the Information Control Officer, you need to spin this one right away.
Oh yes...I almost forgot. Could someone say hello to Joe Bluestein, from Ottawa for me? I think you will find he is an old friend of Ed Perez. He was acting as a "patient" in order to observe me, so he could report to some other doctors "observing" me. They also acted out a great deal for me while deluding themselves that they were "hiding." This sort of thing is the cause of the "confusion" experienced by labeled people, as a reaction to a group, or mob, of people, defining the limits of ur awareness FOR us, then declaring our confusion about their duplicity to be a "symptom" of ours, arising out of our genetic deficiency!
Joe Bluestein was once asked by other doctors, six feet away from me, if he "felt like a spy?" Of course he did. Psychiatrists, by the very nature of their work, are very much like CIA agents. They are just very poor ones. Like Harry M. who TELLS people he loves his "job, working for Homewood, following people around."
There's a lot of that "covert operations" bit going on in our society now isn't there? I have some relatives for example who see themselves the same way. Dr. Brian F. already knows who is pulling the old "switcheroo" on that front. After all, The Old Horse is still helping him do it, aren't you? Did you get the letter I sent you telling you that my relative is telling the rest of my family he has no idea who you are, what kind of Doctor you are, or where you are? He is just "mystified" about my false accusations you know. Well, except for the fact that he can point out to the others who believe him, not me, that I am the one who was given the label and that "proves" how crazy I am and shows why I am accusing him "falsely" doesn't it? (I also have the stuff that HE wrote down for me. These boys have to learn to stop dragging so many people into their plans and to stop writing things down just on the off chance that it may come out in the open. In case all the attempts at intimidation, for example, don't work quite as planned.
Thursday, December 01, 2005
Psychiatrized! Communities A.C.T.T.ing Out
from July, 2005
By Patricia Lefave, Labeled D.D.(P)
My "observation" by the community continues. This ongoing event has nothing whatsoever to do with me or who I actually am as a person, what my personal experience is with anyone, or how I feel about it.
This is basically a report from my perspective about what goes on around me, about me, in the non stop rumour mill in which I live as the "object" of observation and of a group public "assessment" of my life and experience.
We have been brought the "Assertive Community Treatment Team." The police department is now very busy working for the government sponsored "schizo" hunt.I remain as I have always been, to the aggressor in my case, to the staff of the hospital which performed an assault on me, in the name of either "fun" or mental "health," to the local "Caduceus Club" (local family physicians being "taught" by the psychiatric hospital to see signs and symbols of "madness" everywhere) a "fascinating case."
I am most definitely not a real person to any of them.
This is a group , or societal, metaphysical "illness" which has been defined by psychiatry as a physical "illness" with an internal locus. I have been proclaimed to BE a "disease." It is this attitude and behaviour of the groups who do this to a targeted individual which often CAUSES the so-called "illness." In other words, the group thinking and behaviour is excused and denied by declaring it all to be the imagination, hallucinations or delusions of the targeted person or "identified patient." "Identified patient" basically means the individual member of a group who is showing the most distress.
The fact is that, most of the time, if society and psychiatry faced the reality of the perfectly obvious group behaviour and dealt with it, instead of denying or ignoring it, the "identified patient's" distress would quickly disappear. This "illness" waits for Godot. There is no rescuer in this psychodrama because the potential rescuer has chosen to support, and then ultimately to replace, the original aggressor. The fact that the new aggressor does not recognize his own role in this does not make the reality of it any less real or true for the victim. In fact, it often makes it all the more horrifying.
The rescuer turned aggressor is certain that he understands everything just fine. His usually, genuine motivation is to "help" the victim whom he sees and hears through the filter of his own belief system. He therefore concludes that if the victim, now defined as mentally ill, doesn't want, or appreciate, his brand of "help," then it must be a perception/reaction problem that she or he is having...which then reinforces the pseudo rescuers belief system, and on it goes from there to infinite unwanted "help." Nothing the victim says or does will change the minds of those who want to "help" him or her, since once the reality of the situation has been turned around one hundred and eighty degrees, everything said of done after that has already been defined as "proof " of pathology. After all, that is just what ALL the victims say is happening to them is it not? That's right. That's what "we" say. Guess WHY we all say that?
The targeted person is treated "as if " she were crazy, stupid and unconscious very often until that becomes the concrete reality of the situation. This once again, and finally, "proves" how right the psychiatrist, and the group who caused just that outcome really were. These "diagnostics" are the self fulfilling prophecies of psychiatry. They are the tautologies which no one can escape unless the individual in distress can become able to see the whole structure from beginning to end. It is a rare occasion when anyone can be left alone without being drugged long enough to be able to see it with any clarity at all. The way the system is going now, I think it is going to be even less likely to happen since psychiatry is no longer interested in wasting it's time talking to those it labels within ten to fifteen cost-effective minutes.
If the world does not soon stop blaming the victims (or the victims' bodies or brains) while excusing the aggressors, and start blaming the aggressors and really rescuing the victims, I think the chances are pretty good there will be nothing left of the planet for anyone, anywhere, to continue worrying about keeping under control. The so-called "schizophrenics" are mirroring a schizoid society's self created insanity back to itself. When that supposedly "normal" society finally recognizes it's own face in that mirror, and the horror it has created, it's own denial of itself, and it's resistance to knowing itself, life for all will begin to change. A group healing of the "normal" majority will have to occur first. But, until, or unless, it sees what has been right in front of it all along, "hidden" in plain sight, nothing will happen. I mean that both ways, as physical and metaphysical, abstractly and concretely. The final outcome will depend, as it always does, upon the group consensus.
Why don't even psychiatrists understand this? Because psychiatry has constructed an alternate "reality" which it uses as it's framework of reference. Psychiatrists are far too well brainwashed to be able to hear anything, anymore beyond their own perfectly self contained construction. Will the majority step back through the "looking glass" out of the hell of this creation? Will it finally wake up to the truth about itself? Or will it just continue to blindly, and obediently, follow the leader which presents itself as "authority" for no other reason than being told to do so by that "authority?" It is going to be an absolute necessity to question authority if we are ever to step outside that terrible never ending circle and escape our dizzying, mutually destructive fate.
I sincerely hope we will all start asking all the right questions and demanding answers before it is too late to halt the long slide down this slippery slope to the bottomless pit of mindless power and control.
By Patricia Lefave, Labeled D.D.(P)
My "observation" by the community continues. This ongoing event has nothing whatsoever to do with me or who I actually am as a person, what my personal experience is with anyone, or how I feel about it.
This is basically a report from my perspective about what goes on around me, about me, in the non stop rumour mill in which I live as the "object" of observation and of a group public "assessment" of my life and experience.
We have been brought the "Assertive Community Treatment Team." The police department is now very busy working for the government sponsored "schizo" hunt.I remain as I have always been, to the aggressor in my case, to the staff of the hospital which performed an assault on me, in the name of either "fun" or mental "health," to the local "Caduceus Club" (local family physicians being "taught" by the psychiatric hospital to see signs and symbols of "madness" everywhere) a "fascinating case."
I am most definitely not a real person to any of them.
This is a group , or societal, metaphysical "illness" which has been defined by psychiatry as a physical "illness" with an internal locus. I have been proclaimed to BE a "disease." It is this attitude and behaviour of the groups who do this to a targeted individual which often CAUSES the so-called "illness." In other words, the group thinking and behaviour is excused and denied by declaring it all to be the imagination, hallucinations or delusions of the targeted person or "identified patient." "Identified patient" basically means the individual member of a group who is showing the most distress.
The fact is that, most of the time, if society and psychiatry faced the reality of the perfectly obvious group behaviour and dealt with it, instead of denying or ignoring it, the "identified patient's" distress would quickly disappear. This "illness" waits for Godot. There is no rescuer in this psychodrama because the potential rescuer has chosen to support, and then ultimately to replace, the original aggressor. The fact that the new aggressor does not recognize his own role in this does not make the reality of it any less real or true for the victim. In fact, it often makes it all the more horrifying.
The rescuer turned aggressor is certain that he understands everything just fine. His usually, genuine motivation is to "help" the victim whom he sees and hears through the filter of his own belief system. He therefore concludes that if the victim, now defined as mentally ill, doesn't want, or appreciate, his brand of "help," then it must be a perception/reaction problem that she or he is having...which then reinforces the pseudo rescuers belief system, and on it goes from there to infinite unwanted "help." Nothing the victim says or does will change the minds of those who want to "help" him or her, since once the reality of the situation has been turned around one hundred and eighty degrees, everything said of done after that has already been defined as "proof " of pathology. After all, that is just what ALL the victims say is happening to them is it not? That's right. That's what "we" say. Guess WHY we all say that?
The targeted person is treated "as if " she were crazy, stupid and unconscious very often until that becomes the concrete reality of the situation. This once again, and finally, "proves" how right the psychiatrist, and the group who caused just that outcome really were. These "diagnostics" are the self fulfilling prophecies of psychiatry. They are the tautologies which no one can escape unless the individual in distress can become able to see the whole structure from beginning to end. It is a rare occasion when anyone can be left alone without being drugged long enough to be able to see it with any clarity at all. The way the system is going now, I think it is going to be even less likely to happen since psychiatry is no longer interested in wasting it's time talking to those it labels within ten to fifteen cost-effective minutes.
If the world does not soon stop blaming the victims (or the victims' bodies or brains) while excusing the aggressors, and start blaming the aggressors and really rescuing the victims, I think the chances are pretty good there will be nothing left of the planet for anyone, anywhere, to continue worrying about keeping under control. The so-called "schizophrenics" are mirroring a schizoid society's self created insanity back to itself. When that supposedly "normal" society finally recognizes it's own face in that mirror, and the horror it has created, it's own denial of itself, and it's resistance to knowing itself, life for all will begin to change. A group healing of the "normal" majority will have to occur first. But, until, or unless, it sees what has been right in front of it all along, "hidden" in plain sight, nothing will happen. I mean that both ways, as physical and metaphysical, abstractly and concretely. The final outcome will depend, as it always does, upon the group consensus.
Why don't even psychiatrists understand this? Because psychiatry has constructed an alternate "reality" which it uses as it's framework of reference. Psychiatrists are far too well brainwashed to be able to hear anything, anymore beyond their own perfectly self contained construction. Will the majority step back through the "looking glass" out of the hell of this creation? Will it finally wake up to the truth about itself? Or will it just continue to blindly, and obediently, follow the leader which presents itself as "authority" for no other reason than being told to do so by that "authority?" It is going to be an absolute necessity to question authority if we are ever to step outside that terrible never ending circle and escape our dizzying, mutually destructive fate.
I sincerely hope we will all start asking all the right questions and demanding answers before it is too late to halt the long slide down this slippery slope to the bottomless pit of mindless power and control.
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