Soon To Come....

Stay tuned for the integration of opposites, the Zen-like cuteness of the nurse's covert game of Domination.

Paranoid Patty here will do all the work for you, clearly integrating the concrete reality of my experience with nurse Dale, his well manipulated co-workers , and all the others they involved in this all over the city, with the abstract concepts laid out in his training plan which he used to do It.


As a matter of current interest in this week's gossip mill, the rumour of me and my boyfriend getting married is making the rounds again in two of the earlier versions which have been passed around for many years (aka my hallucinated converstations):

1. ''My boyfriend'' is ''the doctor'' (didn't hear which one this week) and that he is a cop. (Take your pick)
Also that my landlord is about to evict me again, has told a prospective tenant that he is giving me notice and that they can look at my apartment when I am not there. They will know by whether my lights are on or not.

As always, since I am talked about, (paranoia) or at, but never to or with, and it is always denied anyway, I never know for sure which of all these rumours are true or false. However, that is always eventually confirmed for me, one way or another, whenever what I hear turns out to occur, so I guess we will see won't we?

Just in case, I left him a new message taped to the door today. I hear he likes to tell stories about me at parties also. If so, hope he enjoys today's new material which I am supplying for his ''socializing.''

WHY Am I Still Waiting...

I want a REAL Police Investigation Into My Personal
Case To Determine Exactly, The degree Of MY Protagonist's Guilt Or Innocence and That Of The Homewood Staff Involved. I want It Solved Based Upon REAL Evidence, NOT Abstract Nonsense.

I Want It Now!

I have just been told that an American writer who used to live in Guelph, has expressed a personal interest in my fascinating ''case.'' Apparently, she may have lived here at the time of my ''imagining'' It all to have have happened.

Do you really think it is a good idea to block all attempts of mine at direct communication for twelve years when I am actually holding evidence ? What do you think all the "outsiders" are going to think of Homewood and Guelph's collective behaviour. I just don't think it is going to look very pretty now that you yourselves have spread the whole story everywhere, do you?

In 96, I told Rhea L. in my recovery therapy that I thought if Homewood ever DID admit to anything or apologize for it, it would still only be because it was more politically expedient to do so, than NOT to do so. As I put it then, " Not exactly a soulful conversion but, I guess it would have to do." better than none at all.

Does Anyone Know Who I Mean?

In 98/99, there was a young woman named "Michelle" who was from Toronto who spent about five months in Homewood.

She would be about 34 years old now. If anyone recognizes who I am talking about, could you ask her to contact me. Tell her I am the health care worker known in Homewood as a "special" with whom she often sat in the dining room who encouraged her in her belief that she could be well and understand all of this.
I think she might find my blogs of interest to her.

Thanks to anyone who can help.

The Enlightenment That Comes With Hindsight

Let's have all my assessors and observers look back with the hindsight we are all suppposed to get out of Dales' little power game shall we?
This is the point where you "realize your experience" (jargon) and understand that the leader of the "game" has us all "totally controlled." (jargon)
Fo a parallel analysis see Robert Lifton, M.D.'s "Psychology of Totalism."

Let's look back to 1997:
After all that was done and then denied, my first direct communication about it came from a residentialpatient at Homewood who said, "Well Pat, I guess YOU understand don't you? Oh that Dale!"

The Trillium clocks had signs pasted over them stating "out of time" (rather than the more concrete "Clock broken") Apparentrly, all the clocks in the Trillium part of the building had gone crazy too. Even in the rec room downstairs according to Jim.

Question: Did Rhea call Brian F. and say "I have a patient..." as an intro to what I was telling her across the street? Patient woman D.R. on H3 at the time said so.

Did you know that some of the university students on rotation inside Homewood at the time were allegedly having them a little fun messing with the head of the nut here?

Do you know who it was who was said to have "kept the keys" to my papartment so that he could get in when he wanted to? Is that just a rumour, a dleiberate attempt to "mess with my head" or reality based and acted out b7 those who considered themselves ot be "hiding" in plain sight while they did it? Perhaps I was just being baited again to see if I would believe something they made up to "test" me and my psychic ability? or perhaps to "test" my insanity?

Calling All Unbounded Guelphites...

FYI

I will remove the specific names in this blog when, or IF, I get an admission of guilt from those who started it, just as of the same rules of character applied to them as they apply to others. I also want a real investigation of my complaint against Dale T., acceptance of responsibility by him and those who acted to help HIM, a public apology to match the public circus you made of my life here, and amends made.

If this does not happen, I will repeat publicly every disgusting word and action by those involved so that the whole planet can enjoy my fascinating case as much as all of you have enjoyed It.

May you reflect on It until It reflects on you.
Just a little "Zen-like" platitude for you.