Visions and Voices: Passing It On

First Posted October 2005


What are the voices referring to when they say it is a "huge breakthrough?"

I see a blond middle-aged woman with a sore shoulder and an injured leg working in the Provincial Courthouse building...I see her scoffing with contempt as he tells her blond friend of my note taking after I went back to Homewood in 96 to work...I see her run to her friend in Old Quebec St. to tell her she has managed to find out that my name is "Pat."
I see a man selling shoes taking note of all the rumours and collecting information. I see shoe guy talk to the great undercover agent ''Intrepid'', also to a tall thin man with a black pony tail who is in the inner circle, as well as to another in the community, Tim, who is paid by Homewood to seek signs and symbols of madness everywhere...I see shoe guy tell university young man an absurd thing. University guy asks shoe guy if he has ever seen Pat Lefave and shoe guy answers him as I walk past them..."Why yes...I see Pat Lefave all the time..."
I hear voices over the transit system radio...The voices are discussing everything they hear about me from everywhere...I hear wild and complex tales of me, yet, not me...like stories about the inside of my apartment and what I have, and what I don't have...my landlords' participation and input..various versions of my sexuality and sexual identity...who is paying for my cable TV (or WAS)as part of a little "test"...the results of baiting me to get a reaction and what bus drivers think it meant...and the bus driver Wayne P. who is now one of the retired ones and who was said to have "held court" about it in restaurants.....

April Glowers

After this point, I am going to stop posting all the details here and just start rotating the details going back as far as I have collected them up till now. That does not mean that I am not going to keep collecting all the information being acted out for me every day by all the mystified innocents of course. It just means that I am storing that somewhere else.

Instead, I am switching my time and energy to some other related projects like Crazy Christine: the Psy Fi series produced on my CounterAct website and The Full Monty: A Description in Detail of what it is like to be assessed and evaluated non stop by people who 'think' they are 'hiding' while acting it out every day from a few feet away.