Citywide Opinions In...

The "Theatre of The Absurd" which is Guelph

Now. Let's look at the citywide opinions and a.c.ting out as it is still being produced for me in this "Theatre." Do you still not get it?

The acting out of the pushy, overbearing types of Guelph as fed by the Homewood staff's constant "evaluations" of the lives of others (outside their group) has been declared in the past (and I understand now as well) to be "thought disorder" paranoid delusions and hallucinated conversations in me, BY Homewood staff and Administrative experts.

In other words, your "enthusiastic" co-operation with my aggressor and the staff involved, (an involvement they deny, both then, and now) and it's subsequent cover up, is what got me my psychiatric label. Since "nothing happened" I MUST be delusional and paranoid to "think" that it did! Isn't that some nifty sidestepping? I call it the Co-dependent Two step. The guilty one denies responsibility and the innocent one is to accept it for the whole group.

I also believe that this was the goal which Dale set first and THEN, he "played his game," by recreating his so called training "out here, in the world of reality." You see, he thinks of this as "winning first."
As Dr. S.F. states in her analysis, "It's about hate."
(but it's wearing a disguise; not unlike the invisible new suit of the fairy tale)

To complete this circle and see the "loop of destruction" (as my psychotic imagery told me I was caught within, and correctly so)we must return to the point where it started. (the Alpha) That would be Homewood and to the individual RPN who sucked me, and everyone else into the "game" in the first place. (full circle: the Omega) Once there, there is one step after that; one which I have already taken even though the rest of the "players" resist it strenuously, and that step is to convert the premise of anti-logic upon which the whole "game" is structured, and switch it back to logic and reality.

Let me show you how the existential "shifting" is done from the abstract nexus of meaning. I will use the concrete example of the Guelph experience to make it more "real" for you.

Concept: "You validate yourselves by invalidating the other point of view."

To me, as the victim, that would be a revelation (if I hadn't been on the receiving end of the experience with others before)
To the group, Homewood staff, U. of Guelph staff and students, bus drivers, and city employees etc. It's an accusation. You are the followers who assume you know what is going on based upon your own fabrications and rumour spreading.
To Dale, the aggressor, with the hidden agenda of domination and the desire for a "secret" power allowing him to control others without detection, It's an instruction. His position is at the top of the metaphysical pyramid (triangle)manipulating the "two sides" and playing both sides off against each other-victim on one side and group (or mob) on the other. Of course, it is intended that the victim will give up resolution as impossible. So he observes the action between the two sides which HE directs, as if he were making his own movie. He believes it can come out any way he wants It to come out.

But, what he doesn't see, because his arrogance blinds him to it, is that he really isn't the one at the top and that his victim is not the moron he needs me to be who will co-operate with his plan. He only "thinks" he is on top because his power is based upon being "unreasonable."

In the ultimate reality, being unreasonable and deluding yourself that you are "superior" for being so, gets you a quick trip to the hell of your own creation (or recreation if you prefer) where you are totally responsible for everything that happens to you as a result; totally responsible for your own pain. This is when you realize that It is not cause OR effect but cause AND effect. By accepting that he can be "at cause," (in control of others) he puts himself "at effect." This is what happens when you just follow instructions without reason.

Once there, you get it: the understanding that is YOUR booby prize ( concrete AND abstract) for being a**holes. This is a metaphysical word game and you lost It and so has everyone who chose to be "with" YOU and supported you in trying to cover It all up. As I once told Rhea L.in 96: Homewood Adminstration is going to fight against the truth just as hard as they can, but it is like trying to lock the barn door LONG after the horse has bolted. (you should pardon the metaphor Old Horse)
If Jill H. at Homewood Administration really read that book, she said she found so fascinating on the nurse's "training," then I am sure she will recognize all the concepts in it used by Dale in playing his "fun game/joke."

Even though the evidence I brought to the meeting with her and Dr. Ed. P. in January of 2001, in Dale's own writing, was kept out of the picture by Dr. P. so that Jill has to see it with that proof missing, I am sure she could see it anyway. You know, I can't help but wonder if Ed. P. was trying to make sure she did not connect any evidence with the book? But then, that would be like saying that he was less than an ethical man and we cetainly can't say that can we? Must be an accident. Perhaps he was just confused. Perhaps he needs a little medication for that.

Well if you still need to keep everyone's awareness "reduced" good luck in getting enough of a drug supply into Guelph to "treat" the whole city and beyond, who may "think" they recognize a profound lack of integrity and reason when they see It. They are probably all just seeing things that aren't there; like me. Soon, there will be so many people who need watching that there won't be enough of them left to do the watching. That could get to be biting off more than you can chew. That's a metaphor. Not actually talking about food there.

This same con (conceptually speaking) is now so well entrenched within the mental illness system itself, it's practitioners, it would seem, have conned themselves best of all. Oh what a tangled web they have weaved........

It has been said on the streets of the town square this week that I have:
"Accomplished the impossible"
This is a typical "Schizophrenic" statement as made by those still supporting the tautologies of the Psychiatric Faith, for if it were "impossible," I could not have "accomplished it." (whatever ''It'' the speaker may be referring to here)
Therefore the error in reasoning lies in those making such judgements in their Zen-like cuteness,(as S.F. might put it)and not in MY perception of THEIR errors in thought. The "thought disorder" is their own, and I will thank them to deal with it and stop trying to hand It to me.