Let's Look At It As It Is Now

In October/November 2005

Allegedly....

Some people at the Library have discussed how "amazing" ( could there BE a more overused word here?)My Site is (The Box). Students at the Mall point me ut and wonder: " Why doesn't she just go to him and tell him"? (which "him" should I continue to tell? It really isn't "allowed" you know)
Bus driver Wayne C. stops to share a word with Wanda M sitting with a group on the bench outside Homewood. On the street it is said: "There she is. "They" say it is going to be a huge celebration." ( of what? )
A so called "chronic" woman tells bus driver Gary to tell his wife that she is being fully discharged from Homewood on Monday. ( after a long stay for psychiatric drug related problems)This woman used to live in public housing at an address where she was harassed regularly by other tenants. Coincidentally, many of the people who live in that building are part of the group who mocked me and ridiculed me on the bus, eyes aglow with high amusement, the ever present little smirks, keeping each other informed of all the latest crapola they have heard everywhere.

When the lady in my story here told a psychiatrist of her growing distress created by the ongoing harassment at the building, he explianed to HER why she was feeling the way she was. "This has happened because you needed to have your medication changed faster."
Well, this seemed a very illogical thing to say as far as this woman was concerned, but then, she was speaking of her reality and the psychiatrist could only hear the "delusions" he had been trained to hear. The woman, being reality based, laughed (for no reason of course) and asked me, "How could changing my medication keep my neighbours from harassing me? That doesn't even make sense."
( I would like to repeat here something I have said many times before: "Sense has nothing to do with this. This is about Non-Sense.")
You see this woman's error is basically the same as mine was: She is looking for sense,or reason where there is no reason. The psychiatrist lives in Wonderland where neighbours do not harass people simply because they have defined them as "inferiors" as to do so would Make No Sense. Like us nuts, the psychiatrist looks for logic in the illogical, BUT if he can't find it he assumes those who see irrationality and abuse of power going on around them must BE the irrational ones. Otherwise it would mean that those he now considers to be his "inferiors" actually understood something that he did not. It would mean the woman's complaints were legitimate and not simply stories "fabricated" to "seek attention/fame." That would mean that SHE is in touch with reality and that HE is not. So he must "reduce her awareness" so that he does not have to know he needs to expand his own, or know that he is being conned by those with hidden agendas.

October
Cheryl F. Above me tells someone that she "really doesn't know what to say to her now." Cheryl had received plenty of advice from others on how to handle me and the "situation" such as my attempts at direct communication which failed immediately. Especially after I asked her if she was related to someone at the G.T.C. You see earlier, someone had phoned her to tell her all about "the lady who lives below you...Pat Lefave." After she heard what that person had to say, she answered, "I don't know what to say now." There seems to be a lot of that sort of problem in this city doesn't there?
If those who operate from behind a personable, friendly facade can' be successfully two faced with someone, they just have NO IDEA how to communicate directly and genuinely. I have asked many involved ot do just that and apparently not one person can figure out how that is done. It appears it is just not "normal" for most people.